started writing in my xanga a little bit more:

beauxpeches.xanga.com



i feel like i lost a piece of my heart, a piece of my future, and life is crumbling away. i know things are for the best but i can't help but feel that loss.


i never knew how fulfilled i would feel having a kid.

and how empty i would feel losing one before they could be born.



nobody understands.
i have no close friends with children.
i have no friends that have lost a child.
i don't feel that i can open up to anyone.

nobody understands.